Tuesday, March 25, 2008

On the cusp

You know that moment in your life when you are anticipating the panic to come, but haven't quite gotten there yet? You can see all that you have to do towering before you, but your brain hasn't quite processed it all yet so you haven't actually started to freak out?
That's right where I am now.

I kinda like it here actually. Not stressed. Not overwhelmed. Just going day to day, ignoring the to do list that gets longer, the parent-teacher conferences that are approaching. the mountain of papers I haven't corrected because I'm too darn tired at night but that need to be corrected before conferences, the huge project that I have to do for my class that is due (of course) right smack in the middle of conferences, the publishing projects that the parents seem to think is a GREAT idea to throw at teachers right before conferences that entails our regular curriculum to come to a screeching halt so every child can choose their absolute-best-better-than-the-kid-next-to-them-writing-piece and make it even more amazing so that all the other parents can read this anthology and exclaim over how amazing their children are, the weekends that are so busy you start every Monday feeling like you need another weekend, and there is no end in sight to the craziness.....you get the gist.

Do you also know those moments in life when you look back and wonder how the heck you survived? Kinda like my second year of teaching when I had just switched grade levels, was working on my BEST portfolio (whose outcome could potentially impact the rest of my career) and was waitressing part time? Plus, of course, being involved in a couple of committees....to this day I have no idea how I 1) survived the year and 2) managed to pass my portfolio.
I'm right there too. I can already tell that I'm going to look back on this period of my life and wonder how in the heck I did it all.

But for now, I'll stay here, poised on a precipice, blogging instead of working, enjoying the view from the bottom of my to-do mountain.

3 comments:

Kelli said...

This may be selfish, but I'm glad you chose to post over any of the other huge "to do's" you had looming...
I love reading Lisa updates!

Mom S said...

But you're always smiling!!!
How do you do that???
That's our Lisa...

Tina said...

Hmmm, I don't know how to tell you this but... once buttercup arrives, you'll look back at this period of time and think about how much easier things were back then... :)