Wednesday, March 17, 2010

What I learned.....

Today I learned that I'm 33 years old and not above asking my Dad for help with my homework.

Today I learned that two hours of a screaming 8 year old is more draining than one might imagine.

Today I learned the power of a phone call--to make a difference, and to make a teacher feel good.

Today I learned that I am not happy in my job. Correct that. I love my job. I have the best job in the world and I never ever feel like I don't want to do my job. But now, in this moment, maybe even in this year, I am not happy. I am Tired. And Overwhelmed. And Frustrated beyond anything. And feeling like I am swimming against the tide and not making headway. I realized today that I have been feeling that way since-- well since October I'd say.

Today I learned that to be a teammate, you need to have a team.
Unfortunately, I don't.
Today I learned that I am officially done trying to be a teammate.

Today I learned that even when I have a day that leaves me crying on the way home, the second I hear Aliza saying "Mama, open the door" while rattling the gate to get to me, my day melts away and my heart sings.


Keetha said...

I'm sorry for the rough day! I can't imagine.

Teachers are heroes. Do what you need to do!

Nonna said...

How about a vacation & or sunshine?
Hope your days get better.


JaxMom said...

Hang in there, Lisa.